Do you know that feeling when a knife is in your heart, twisting and turning? Do you know what it’s like to have a car run you over a million times? That’s how I’m feeling. Rage builds in me and, instead of screaming and yelling, I sit in front of Larry, numb and frozen.
“I can’t do this, Larry. I’m fucking human, you know? I have feelings!”
He brings me into his arms and tries to calm me down. “I know and that’s what I told him.”
I can’t give Nicholas what he needs, even though it’s what I truly want. I refuse to break up his marriage and be the one that he uses to escape from Jamie. If something is up and he’s doing this because she’s manipulating him, then that’s a different story and I’ll beg him to leave her. I don’t know the whole story and I’m not sure if I even will get the story. A little voice in my head keeps screaming at me to fight for the man I love. But I don’t know if that’s the right answer.
“I’m gonna go lie down. Thanks for the coffee,” I mutter.
Back in my room, in my safety area, I place the steaming cup of coffee on my nightstand and lie down, facing the balcony.
Tearing away from the sun rising, I force my mind back to sleep. It’s been the longest few nights without Nicholas. I don’t know where to go or what to do. I can’t forget him. Every time I close my eyes, I see his eyes, his smile; I see everything. My chest fills with ache. Sitting here crying over him while everyone else is living kills me. The fight in me is slowly going away. Unable to stand the silence I open my music app on my phone and play a song I haven’t heard in a few weeks – our song. It plays over and over again so I can remember our dance and how I felt when he was holding me. Everything feels heavy and miserable. I scream into my pillow and pray that I can be taken away. I don’t care if we weren’t together for a long time. When it comes to love, there’s no measurement in time. It’s how love makes you feel and it made me feel whole. I’d give anything to feel that way again.
Vision of Destiny (Infinity Series 2) by S. Moose
This book follows the story of Nicholas and Karly and what happens at the end of book 1. This book starts the emotional massacre right away- I have never jumped into a book and immediately wanted to cry right alongside a character before! I give S. Moose props for her writing style and her character development.
I have a major beef with Nicholas; he screws Karly over so many times in the book all in the name of helping his daughter, which is noble and sacrificial but, he could have handled it a lot better than he did. I also didn’t like that he hurt Karly purposely and still had every intention of getting back with her. Karly is broken by Nicholas’s actions and I was angry on her behalf! I really wanted her to bounce back and write him off but it didn’t happen. The story processes through a lot of angst and emotions- I kid you not my emotions were right there with Karly’s the entire book. I was wrecked!
As Nicholas and Karly work out what they need to do with their lives, they realize they can’t let each other go no matter the obstacles. When Jamie revels her true purpose everyone is relieved and shocked at how evil Jamie is. Me not so much, she screamed N-A-S-T-Y after the first few sentences of her intro in the book plot. With Jamie out of the picture, Karly & Nicholas make to pick up their lives where they left off. They work diligently to do this and everything is going well until Nicholas slips up on a secret and it may cost him Karly.
And I can’t go any further without revealing spoilers for those of you. But I will say this: I was emotionally involved to a level I have never been in a book before. I cried right alongside Karly and waited not so patiently for Nicholas to do the right thing! I am so relieved that they were able to get the HEA after everything that they’ve been through. I will be looking forward to more of this author’s work in the future.
Vision of Love & Vision of Destiny
Nate Tebow as Nicholas Hayes
Vision of Hope
Ryan Patrick as Jensen Toscano